Change

They say change is optional I made the choice to change but it seems like its impossible possibly this is all I can be accept or reject me......I wrote that once but ToDAY I decided that what I am today isn't all I can be and even though at times it seems impossible it really isn't. As impatient as I am it sucks because it seems the keys to this life are faith and patience. So how do you grow these things? How do you get what you don't have? I opened up my Bible today for the first time in weeks. It felt like I had opened up a textbook......I knew the tests of life were coming but i hadn't been to class in so long. Even though it was an open book test I didn't know where to begin to find the answers. I held the Bible close to me hoping that if maybe I pressed hard enough the info I desperatly needed would be imprinted on my heart....it DOESN"T work like that. What was imprinted was the fact that I must change. Choosing to remain the same is dangerous and not only dangerous but dumb like slow dancing in a burning room........

The Economy

The economy is a sick old lady trying to cross the street
Politicians walking fast past her looking at their feet
Acting like they don't know what to do
I'm on a bull horn yelling try something new
Acting on greed and self interest just won't do
Think of me the voter think of me the toter of America's woes
What do we do next politician you telling me you don't know
Well I think first our relationship needs some balance
It feels like I'm the giver and you're the taker
It feels like I bake all day while you stack the cake
I'm an involuntary philanthropist
My life an ongoing good deed
I work for cheap so you can get what you need for cheaper
I sow the sweat while you're the real reaper
I live check to check
While your assistant checks the arrival time of your personal jet
Is this right.......is this the American dream
The truth is America doesn't belong to us it belongs to the 10% at the top that own 90% of everything
Maybe its me maybe I don't understand principles like supply and demand
Or maybe I do I demand answers and you supply me with info that's irrelevant or just isn't true
The streets learned from Washington 24/7/365
On every corner of America pushing kilos of lies
Giving America no choice but to buy
I don't understand it
But i know things won't change because the masses will never demand it
In ignorance they've found bliss
I've come to realize the government doesn't give an eff if a couple of ants get pissed
Cause one man don't stop no show
Unless one man decides to blow
That's exactly what I intend to do
So lean close so I can blow that muzzle from your mouth
So you can speak your truth
Lean close so I can blow the veil the media has forced over your eyes
Lean close so I can blow out some of those deep rooted lies
Lean close so I can blow away some of that fear the government is trying to instill
I'm going in for the kill
I don't care if its a suicide mission
In living like this I'm missing
Missing out on life
I'd rather take a stand can't give into BigBrother with absolutely no fight

People Watched

Have you ever sat in one spot and people watched
Watched and wondered
Sat and pondered
What the stranger walking by is going through
Wishing for even a second you could slide in their shoes
See their struggles
Find out what they knew
See what they believe is true and what they deem false
See what beliefs they hold dear and which ones they toss
I people watch
Till I take a look at my watch and realize somewhere along the way I became lost in my thoughts
Comparing and contrasting
The simplest characteristics like the way a person walks
Trying to judge if their walk is related to their thoughts
Are their minds racing as fast as their feet as they speed walk to class
Is their mind moving in Slo Mo as they leisurely stroll pass
Is the frustration in their face produced by thoughts of stress
Do they serve my God are they at thins moment thanking him for being blessed
I people watch until I stop to see the people are watching me
We meet eyes hoping in vain to see what the other sees
.....................I like people watching especially when I have a lot on my mind. It is sooo easy to waste time and escape my thoughts by pondering the mind of another. I can't think about me while I'm thinking about you.

My safety net

HE was my safety net
As long as I had him I knew that if I fell there would be something to break my fall
But a net isn't what I needed although its what I desired for too long
As time continued on I realized I could never fall into a new love with my safety net remaining
The only choices I had were to cut the threads of the net or choose to never fall and the thought of never falling didn't fly with me at all
So today i cut the threads thinking I would feel liberated
Instead I'm scared shitless mind drifting over my decision making
Body not understanding why its heart feels like its breaking
Deep down I know it was the right choice
Beyond these tear filled eyes and moist cheeks I see
The decision won't leave me weak but strong
Another day with the net remaining would have only been wrong
I lovED him the key being the fact i didn't say love I said lovED so today
I leave my net in the past tense to stay